One Thing

So, I wrote this little bit in the Prayer Room this morning.  It goes in and out of prose and poetry and songs n stuff.  It's not very organized...but it's what came out, lol.  Just a note, if I mention the Lord as my "Lover"...I DON'T MEAN IT IN A SEXUAL WAY!!!!!!! Just wanting to clarify...some people get weird ideas.  I don't mean it in any kind of weird romantic way.  That's just gross.  I mean it in a purely artistic sense of a heart connection to the Lord and a spiritual connection and the Lord being in first place in my heart. NOTHING MORE.

I have all these ... feelings....welling up inside of me -- all the ways You've been my Number One --  But no words to speak them, no voice to sing them, no strength to dance them.  And yet, the feelings get stronger and the water boils even more.  The fire grows and my heart yearns all the more.  But how can I sing of the Lord when He is unknowable?  How can I dance when His Presence is so immense?  How can I write of this God that I know not of?


For Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts
You are perfect
Your ways are not my silly old ways
You are too good


But Lord, Your perfection surpasses the most majestic mountain, and Your goodness is far greater than the most perfect sunrise.  How do You shape the mountains? And how do You fill the oceans?  How do You paint the sky, with all the stars and the sun, shining so brightly?  The nations are but a drop in the bucket to You, and the universes are Your sheep.  


Lord! It's not good enough!  My words will never match Your beautiful glory! How can I sing a song when no pitch rings true?  And how can I dance the dance of a story that I cannot comprehend? What is grace, Lord?  I know not the extent of Your grace!  What is mercy, Lord?  I cannot tell.  For even the grace and mercy You've shown me stoops my frail human frame.  Your grace is so great and Your mercy so strong in me!  Yet...I know it not - even when it stares me in the face!


But, Lord, if You would grant me one favor, just one desire that's in my heart.  If it pleases You, Lord, in Your mercy and grace...would You allow me to dwell in Your house forever?  I want to be with You, Lord.  I want to live in Your Presence.  I don't want to leave the garden of communion.  O, let me stay and gaze on Your beauty.  Let me see the different facets of Your character.  I want to lock eyes with my Creator.  O, and Lord, I want to talk with You.  Help me to hear Your voice.  Let us dialogue and fellowship.  I seek Your heart, Lord.  Let the groaning of Your heart billow within me.  I seek Your wisdom, Lord.  O, Lord, if You would grant me one thing in the whole world, please, let me abide in You, and You in me, that I might be a vessel that brings glory to Your name.  You are the One that I want.  Above all else, give me Yourself, Father.


There is not one person, no, not a thing in all creation that satisfies my soul the way that You have Lord.  You're all I need.  You're all I want, Yeshua.  I will never give that place in my heart to another, for You are the only One that I love.  You're the only One who makes me undone.  And I am undone.  Because, who am I that You would love a wretch like me?  What is Your love?  I am incapable of pure love.  Yet, You still love me, more and more.  


Jesus, You're my King!  I'll never seat another in Your place in my heart again!  Lord, don't let me do it!  Don't let me go! Hold me close, so tight that I can't escape.  Father, hold me in Your arms, in Your arms of strength and safety, in Your arms of mercy and justice, in Your arms of love.  O, God!  Don't let me go!  Don't let me go!


You are the only One for me, Lord.  I'll have no other.  I won't accept anyone but You.  You're my only Lover.  You're my only Defender.  You're my only One.  


Jesus is the One!
He is the only One for me!
And I'll have no other
He is my only Lover


And when I arise
You will be on my mind
When I confront the day
With You my heart will stay
So when I face the trials of the life
I know You'll be right by my side
Therefore I'll never leave You
Cause You're the only One I'll talk to!


For such a High Priest was fitting for man
That we might not bear these burdens again
You are holy, harmless, blameless, O God
You are perfected forever, the Great Echad
You are the only One found worthy
To be seated in my heart as the 
King of Glory
And I look to no one,
I look for no thing
Because You are my only satisfaction, You see.


You are good
And there is no other
You are holy
And there is no other
You are righteous
There is none like You Lord


You are the One
You are the only One for me
And I'll have no other
You are my only Lover.