Loving God is not a game
Playing with God is not the same
As giving Him your wounded heart
You say you know Him,
Guess that's a start...
But knowing Him is so much more
Than gaining knowledge
In twenty-four
Books of the Bible.
Can't you see?
Right relationship
Will set us free
From all our all our bondage,
All our chains.
Yet you still think
That He's a pain.
He gives us freedom,
Gives us life
But you can't get over
All the strife
The enemy puts inside you head.
Don't you want to have Him
instead?
Why this waiting?
Why this anger?
Why do you treat Him
Like a stranger?
He's your Friend
He's your Brother
He only requires
No Other Lovers.
But you still sit
In your grief
You complain,
And whine
This is such a crime
Against God Almighty
Who lets you breathe.
Without Him you're dead.
Can't you see?
What'll it cost?
What's it gonna take
For you to stop being stupid
And put your stake
In the ground
And be found
In Yeshua, our Lord
And take the sword
Of His Word
Before you're burned.
He's the Lord
The Lord of lords.
He's coming back
and He won't take you back
if you lack
the stack
of crack
down of your lack
now.
You better fight the fight
And be known for your flight
from he who devours all your might
just like a kite
with no wind beneath it's wings
You better submit
He's the king.
Let me hear you sing
"Holy
Holy
Holy
Lord God of Glory"
You gotta get in with His Story.
So don't be dumb
Get real
Get right
Why you always
puttin' up a fight?
To those who love you
an' wanna see you grow?
I think it's time you listen
To the wishin'
Of those around you
Who care about you
Cause, fo real, what we say it true.
That's why we say
Holy
Holy
Holy
Is the Lord God of Glory
Quick, before you can't get in His Story...
Friday, September 23, 2011
His Story (a rap? lol)
Um, so I was just writing a poem on the spot, and I think it turned into a rap. lol....I'm not sure it's that good because I've never written a rap before.....so, forgive my lack of ghetto-ness, lol. I ain't no gangsta. ;)
Monday, September 12, 2011
Random Thoughts
As I sit here, I think about the crazy things that have been happening over the past few weeks. Besides the bugs, the allergies, the lack of sleep, the stress, the emotional ups n downs, and the crazy schedule I have....I've been doing just great! *let the reader understand sarcasm*
When you think about what you're going to do with your life, how do you intend to get there? Do you intend to practice and train on the way? How will you plan?
I think sometimes I forget that the Lord actually wants me to practice and do some hands-on training on my way to the ministry assignment He has for me...aka my career. When I was at home, I didn't think the Lord would have me step out in the way He did! Dance Director (which honestly was a shock to me), Purim Play, Prophetic Dance at Shavuot, Greeting Cards, Prints... a girl in a white outfit standing on a windy beach with a purple piece of cloth, her photographer and her hair/makeup artist under a blanket. Doesn't seem strange to you? Well, it does to me!
I really thought the Lord would have me on the sidelines when I got home, and I fully intended to just teach the conference dance and be done for 5 years. Funny how God works, isn't it?
Then, He brings me back to IHOP for more training, but mostly for more deliverance. Now, I'm playing keys, singing, and dancing my little heart out for the Lord every day! Sounds exciting, and it is! But there's so much more to what's been happening here that I haven't been sharing. There's so much that He's been teaching me in the times where it's just me and Him.
Since I have started dancing again, I feel so much better. Even though I suck right now, and have a long way to go, I wouldn't give this time of small beginning up for anything. Dance brings me so much more joy than any other activity (obviously excluding encountering the Lord in the secret place and elsewhere). I drove home in my leotard, tights and knitted shorts tonight and thought about how much joy it brings me to have ugly, bruised up feet and hair so tightly pulled back that it gives me a headache while wearing 15 layers (the bottom ones, of course, being my dance clothes...being that dancers are usually half naked when they go to class...*sigh*....modest is hottest! ;D). Dance is therapy for me.
Just random thoughts tonight...nothing special. When some things happen, I will post it (probably). I am waiting for a few things to happen before I post, though.
Prayer Requests:
~ I have been having major sinus issues basically since I got here. I have taken Claritin D and am now immune to it, so I can't take it anymore. It's really bothersome to try to sleep, sing, read, eat, etc. when your sinuses are being ridiculous. Please don't comment with your idea of what I should do unless I know you REALLY REALLY REALLY well. I'm not asking for counsel, just prayer. If everyone commented, I'd be reading a million suggestions a day with everyone getting offended cause I didn't take their idea. A commitment to pray for me is much more appreciated and accepted than anything else.
~ Grace to study, sleep, and eat. :)
~ Healing for my body so I can dance. I have a number of injuries and issues in my body that hinder me from dancing well. I won't put the whole list, but please just pray that my body would actually be healed so I can dance properly. :)
When you think about what you're going to do with your life, how do you intend to get there? Do you intend to practice and train on the way? How will you plan?
I think sometimes I forget that the Lord actually wants me to practice and do some hands-on training on my way to the ministry assignment He has for me...aka my career. When I was at home, I didn't think the Lord would have me step out in the way He did! Dance Director (which honestly was a shock to me), Purim Play, Prophetic Dance at Shavuot, Greeting Cards, Prints... a girl in a white outfit standing on a windy beach with a purple piece of cloth, her photographer and her hair/makeup artist under a blanket. Doesn't seem strange to you? Well, it does to me!
I really thought the Lord would have me on the sidelines when I got home, and I fully intended to just teach the conference dance and be done for 5 years. Funny how God works, isn't it?
Then, He brings me back to IHOP for more training, but mostly for more deliverance. Now, I'm playing keys, singing, and dancing my little heart out for the Lord every day! Sounds exciting, and it is! But there's so much more to what's been happening here that I haven't been sharing. There's so much that He's been teaching me in the times where it's just me and Him.
Since I have started dancing again, I feel so much better. Even though I suck right now, and have a long way to go, I wouldn't give this time of small beginning up for anything. Dance brings me so much more joy than any other activity (obviously excluding encountering the Lord in the secret place and elsewhere). I drove home in my leotard, tights and knitted shorts tonight and thought about how much joy it brings me to have ugly, bruised up feet and hair so tightly pulled back that it gives me a headache while wearing 15 layers (the bottom ones, of course, being my dance clothes...being that dancers are usually half naked when they go to class...*sigh*....modest is hottest! ;D). Dance is therapy for me.
Just random thoughts tonight...nothing special. When some things happen, I will post it (probably). I am waiting for a few things to happen before I post, though.
Prayer Requests:
~ I have been having major sinus issues basically since I got here. I have taken Claritin D and am now immune to it, so I can't take it anymore. It's really bothersome to try to sleep, sing, read, eat, etc. when your sinuses are being ridiculous. Please don't comment with your idea of what I should do unless I know you REALLY REALLY REALLY well. I'm not asking for counsel, just prayer. If everyone commented, I'd be reading a million suggestions a day with everyone getting offended cause I didn't take their idea. A commitment to pray for me is much more appreciated and accepted than anything else.
~ Grace to study, sleep, and eat. :)
~ Healing for my body so I can dance. I have a number of injuries and issues in my body that hinder me from dancing well. I won't put the whole list, but please just pray that my body would actually be healed so I can dance properly. :)
The Curse & Our Blessed Hope
Recently, the Lord has just been marking my heart with a sense of identity. He's slowly weening me off of the things that I thought too highly of, and bringing me to a place where all I can see is Him and all I can say is, "I want nothing else". While I have actually been in this place for quite some time, the Lord has been dealing with me in a new way. As I'm allowing the Lord into the deepest places of my heart, which sometimes aren't so bright, He's bringing healing to my soul and showing me what -- or who -- I really want.
It is so important that we don't find our identity in a gift or a ministry. It is also crucial that we do not find our identity in other people. I think latching onto an idea of who we think we are or the gifts we think we have is a recipe for destruction, despair, and hopelessness. So many times we create this idea of who we are, or who we want to be, and we try so hard to be that. The truth is, we're not that, no matter how hard we pretend. We're all wretched. We're all dust. No gift or talent or mask that we wear will ever change that.
On Saturday, at service (at Or HaOlam), Rabbi Shmu'el was teaching from the Parashah. He discussed a curse that we all have over our lives because we have sinned against the Lord and, therefore (based on the Hebrew text), deserve to die on a tree. We all live under this curse until we give it all to Yeshua. He is the One who died on the tree for us. He took to judgement for our sins. He took the curse upon Himself, and therefore, liberated us. Rabbi was suggesting that, although those of us who are believers in Yeshua have given our lives to Him and are set free (or hopefully, when we say that we are believers, we really mean it), there are areas in each of our lives that we have not given to Him yet. Because of this, that part of us is still under a curse (although not a curse that damns us to hell).
I thought about my own life and the things I still struggle with and the areas that...well, I simply don't want to let the Lord into. I thought about the life patterns I have and the things I'm not yet free from. Some things are simply out of my control! But, what I can do, is give them to Him every day. I can release my control and desire for these displeasing and ungodly patterns and ask the Lord to set me free. I can ask Him to come and break the chains and, literally, intercede and contend for myself. I think many times we only think of intercession or contending for something in the sense of a nation or people group or family member. But, the Holy Spirit groans for us in intercession (Romans), and Yeshua Himself is always living to intercede for us (Hebrews). So, if God HIMSELF intercedes for me, why shouldn't I intercede and contend for my own breakthrough and deliverance? It's not just the sick people and the demon-possessed that need our prayers. It's not just Israel that needs our prayers. We need our own prayers for ourselves.
I want to feel about my sin the way God feels about my sin. I want to groan in intercession for myself that God Himself would shine His light on my sins and break the chains of death and destruction over my life!!! Friends, it's not about pointing out the sin in others and "praying" that they would find deliverance. It's about pointing ourselves out, admitting that we are wrong and sinful, and boldly going before the throne of grace (Hebrews) and saying to the Lord, "Me! Me! Me! I need help! God help ME! I can't do it!" Like a student when they know the answer to a problem and they get so excited and anxious about it...I want to raise my hand boldly because I know I have the answer to my problems. It's Jesus. I want my Teacher to pick me. Now, that's not a very good analogy....but just bear with me, I'm tired. lol. And the Lord is so faithful and merciful to forgive us, that, when we repent, it's done with.
I just keep thinking about the one sentence I shared: "I want to feel the way God feels about my sin." God, I want the fear of the Lord to come over my heart, that I might feel the way You feel about these things I hold onto that really belong at the foot of the cross.
At this one Youth Retreat, back before the YMJA did them, Matt, my youth pastor, was teaching all of us. I must have been eleven or twelve at this time. He got us all gathered around him, and he asked us, "What would you do if Yeshua was standing right where I'm standing?" Awkwardly, we all looked at each other. No one wanted to be the uber religious one. We all kinda just stared at him, trying to be cool. He asked it again, "What would you do if Yeshua was standing right where I'm standing?" I thought to myself (not aloud, of course, cause then I'd be a loser), "Well, I'd bow down on my face before Him."
I never did bow down on my face, or even suggest that, because I was too afraid of being the weird nerdy girl who loved God. I wanted to be cool so bad, that I didn't say anything. I always regretted that day; the day I didn't take a stand for God.
I want to be a person that bows down on my face before the Lord and worships Him alone, even if people think I'm weird. I want to be one that lives before His face, and has eyes set on His for my whole life and whatever comes after. The reality is that I don't even know those people anymore (except Angel Hernandez, lol, and Isaac Beltran) and being cool at that time was so pointless, because where are they in my life now? To be quite frank, God is way more cool than any person on this earth (no, for real, He is). I don't want to let the opinions of people who won't even be in my life within the next five years effect me so deeply, that I lose my chance to bow before the Lord.
Jesus, would You come and make my life a fragrant offering? Would You come and burn away everything that hinders loving devotion to You alone? No other gods, no other loves. Give me strength to let You into my deepest, darkest places. Give me grace to give it all back to You. Send breakthrough to a willing heart. Send life to these dry bones. Yeshua, take it all. Leave nothing behind. In the Name above every name, Yeshua HaMashiach, Amen.
It is so important that we don't find our identity in a gift or a ministry. It is also crucial that we do not find our identity in other people. I think latching onto an idea of who we think we are or the gifts we think we have is a recipe for destruction, despair, and hopelessness. So many times we create this idea of who we are, or who we want to be, and we try so hard to be that. The truth is, we're not that, no matter how hard we pretend. We're all wretched. We're all dust. No gift or talent or mask that we wear will ever change that.
I thought about my own life and the things I still struggle with and the areas that...well, I simply don't want to let the Lord into. I thought about the life patterns I have and the things I'm not yet free from. Some things are simply out of my control! But, what I can do, is give them to Him every day. I can release my control and desire for these displeasing and ungodly patterns and ask the Lord to set me free. I can ask Him to come and break the chains and, literally, intercede and contend for myself. I think many times we only think of intercession or contending for something in the sense of a nation or people group or family member. But, the Holy Spirit groans for us in intercession (Romans), and Yeshua Himself is always living to intercede for us (Hebrews). So, if God HIMSELF intercedes for me, why shouldn't I intercede and contend for my own breakthrough and deliverance? It's not just the sick people and the demon-possessed that need our prayers. It's not just Israel that needs our prayers. We need our own prayers for ourselves.
I want to feel about my sin the way God feels about my sin. I want to groan in intercession for myself that God Himself would shine His light on my sins and break the chains of death and destruction over my life!!! Friends, it's not about pointing out the sin in others and "praying" that they would find deliverance. It's about pointing ourselves out, admitting that we are wrong and sinful, and boldly going before the throne of grace (Hebrews) and saying to the Lord, "Me! Me! Me! I need help! God help ME! I can't do it!" Like a student when they know the answer to a problem and they get so excited and anxious about it...I want to raise my hand boldly because I know I have the answer to my problems. It's Jesus. I want my Teacher to pick me. Now, that's not a very good analogy....but just bear with me, I'm tired. lol. And the Lord is so faithful and merciful to forgive us, that, when we repent, it's done with.
I just keep thinking about the one sentence I shared: "I want to feel the way God feels about my sin." God, I want the fear of the Lord to come over my heart, that I might feel the way You feel about these things I hold onto that really belong at the foot of the cross.
At this one Youth Retreat, back before the YMJA did them, Matt, my youth pastor, was teaching all of us. I must have been eleven or twelve at this time. He got us all gathered around him, and he asked us, "What would you do if Yeshua was standing right where I'm standing?" Awkwardly, we all looked at each other. No one wanted to be the uber religious one. We all kinda just stared at him, trying to be cool. He asked it again, "What would you do if Yeshua was standing right where I'm standing?" I thought to myself (not aloud, of course, cause then I'd be a loser), "Well, I'd bow down on my face before Him."
I never did bow down on my face, or even suggest that, because I was too afraid of being the weird nerdy girl who loved God. I wanted to be cool so bad, that I didn't say anything. I always regretted that day; the day I didn't take a stand for God.
I want to be a person that bows down on my face before the Lord and worships Him alone, even if people think I'm weird. I want to be one that lives before His face, and has eyes set on His for my whole life and whatever comes after. The reality is that I don't even know those people anymore (except Angel Hernandez, lol, and Isaac Beltran) and being cool at that time was so pointless, because where are they in my life now? To be quite frank, God is way more cool than any person on this earth (no, for real, He is). I don't want to let the opinions of people who won't even be in my life within the next five years effect me so deeply, that I lose my chance to bow before the Lord.
Oh, to be wholehearted before the Lord. To be at His feet forever. To be humble enough to admit I'm struggling. To be before a God that desires we be together.
Jesus, would You come and make my life a fragrant offering? Would You come and burn away everything that hinders loving devotion to You alone? No other gods, no other loves. Give me strength to let You into my deepest, darkest places. Give me grace to give it all back to You. Send breakthrough to a willing heart. Send life to these dry bones. Yeshua, take it all. Leave nothing behind. In the Name above every name, Yeshua HaMashiach, Amen.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
His Story
I think Thursdays are probably my favorite day of the week. It's my shortest day, but that's actually not why. It's my favorite because I get to spend 4 awesome hours in our beautiful Prayer Room (two of those hours are an intercession set for Israel....which, by the way, is the most Israeli-sounding set I have ever heard at IHOP...crazy). I also take a Sound class, which is pretty cool, cause I like learning the technical aspect of things (and I'll be able to own Mr. Cole when I come home! jkjk, never), and a class called "Life of David".
I honestly LOVE my Life of David Class. We're not only learning about David's actual life, we're learning about the whole Bible. It's amazing how the Lord put His word together. The Bible (the whole thing) is this grand dramatic story that unfolds the desire of God to dwell with man. Honestly...go read it. Genesis to Revelation. God's whole redemptive plan and everything involving Jesus and Israel and Gentiles and....just everything...it's all for one purpose: The Lord desires to dwell with us. He has been trying to bring this to pass since the fall of man in Genesis! I would try to explain it all, but it will just come out like mush right now.
As we were discussing the garden of Eden and the temple and the New Jerusalem and the Lord's faithfulness in bringing forth the people of Israel, I began to weep. The main calling and purpose of the nation of Israel is to proclaim GOD to the nations. We're to be a light to the Lord, and to provide that dwelling place (the temple, etc). So, how are we doing?
In the midst of all of this, I got this picture of myself in the temple, singing and ministering to the Lord. His Presence was there and I was serving Him as my life's "duty". It just brings Psalm 27:4 to mind. "One thing have I desired, That will I seek; To dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, To gaze on the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple." I couldn't have said it better myself. This is my life's service; to minister to God, to be before Him, and never leave His temple.
While my heart was being moved by this personal revelation from the Lord, I saw an even greater plan. The fact that God would love a people so much that He would call them His own and involve them in His Story is absolutely astounding to me. Who are we that we deserve such an honor, to serve the Lord and the nations in this way? He wants so badly to dwell with us. I just had this heart revelation that...He chose us. A backsliding, complaining people (which He says about us Himself). He chose Jerusalem out of ALL the cities. He chose Israel, both land and human. He chose us. He chose me. I felt the weight of responsibility. He wants so badly to dwell with us, yet we esteemed Him not.
We failed. We failed the Lord! How could we fail the Lord when He was RIGHT THERE??? How could we want something else when He's SO beautiful? We turned the other way. We put our hope in money, education, ourselves, and loathed the fact that we were chosen. What a shame.
Here's the glorious part...we're still chosen by Him. He still wants to dwell in Jerusalem with us. He will rescue His beloved Israel, and she will know her God. The Lord is faithful to Jacob.
When I got home (after being in complete shock and awe the whole way home), I broke down and let it all out. I felt the burden of the Lord for my people, and I felt the desire of the Lord at the same time. I seriously feel like Jeremiah on a regular basis. How did we miss Him when He was right there? I feel like the faithfulness of Abraham is a real factor here, to be honest. The Lord really likes Abraham, haha.
During this time of t'shuvah, I encourage you to not just ask God the people you've wronged to make amends with them, but to ask God how you've missed Him. He is still right there. He still desires to dwell with man. Will you fall and not rise (Jer. 8:4)? Will you turn away and not turn back to the Lord (Jer. 8:4)?
I honestly LOVE my Life of David Class. We're not only learning about David's actual life, we're learning about the whole Bible. It's amazing how the Lord put His word together. The Bible (the whole thing) is this grand dramatic story that unfolds the desire of God to dwell with man. Honestly...go read it. Genesis to Revelation. God's whole redemptive plan and everything involving Jesus and Israel and Gentiles and....just everything...it's all for one purpose: The Lord desires to dwell with us. He has been trying to bring this to pass since the fall of man in Genesis! I would try to explain it all, but it will just come out like mush right now. As we were discussing the garden of Eden and the temple and the New Jerusalem and the Lord's faithfulness in bringing forth the people of Israel, I began to weep. The main calling and purpose of the nation of Israel is to proclaim GOD to the nations. We're to be a light to the Lord, and to provide that dwelling place (the temple, etc). So, how are we doing?
In the midst of all of this, I got this picture of myself in the temple, singing and ministering to the Lord. His Presence was there and I was serving Him as my life's "duty". It just brings Psalm 27:4 to mind. "One thing have I desired, That will I seek; To dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, To gaze on the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple." I couldn't have said it better myself. This is my life's service; to minister to God, to be before Him, and never leave His temple.
We failed. We failed the Lord! How could we fail the Lord when He was RIGHT THERE??? How could we want something else when He's SO beautiful? We turned the other way. We put our hope in money, education, ourselves, and loathed the fact that we were chosen. What a shame.
Here's the glorious part...we're still chosen by Him. He still wants to dwell in Jerusalem with us. He will rescue His beloved Israel, and she will know her God. The Lord is faithful to Jacob.
When I got home (after being in complete shock and awe the whole way home), I broke down and let it all out. I felt the burden of the Lord for my people, and I felt the desire of the Lord at the same time. I seriously feel like Jeremiah on a regular basis. How did we miss Him when He was right there? I feel like the faithfulness of Abraham is a real factor here, to be honest. The Lord really likes Abraham, haha.
During this time of t'shuvah, I encourage you to not just ask God the people you've wronged to make amends with them, but to ask God how you've missed Him. He is still right there. He still desires to dwell with man. Will you fall and not rise (Jer. 8:4)? Will you turn away and not turn back to the Lord (Jer. 8:4)?
"Oh, Yeshua, help me see
That my life is Yours indeed
Will You bring me to a weeping
That turns me back to You
I want the fear of the Lord!
(To bring me back)
I want the fear of the Lord!
(To seek You alone)
I want the fear of the Lord!
(To abide in You)
I want the fear of the Lord
Purify me, God!"
~~excerpt from "Song of Return" by me! ;)
Saturday, September 3, 2011
So...
Every time I blog something, I feel like I'm supposed to erase it and not post it. So I'm posting why I haven't been posting instead, lol. The Lord is doing something crazy in me right now that is way too hard to explain yet. More on this when I figure out what it is. lol.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Schedule, IHOPU, and Life!
Hey Everyone!
So, the past month or so has been so hectic and busy! I guess that's good, because I didn't come here to lay around and do nothing all day.
In the past month (since I posted my last blog), I have done the following:
-- found a place to live (about 4 minutes from the Prayer Room and 7-10 minutes from IHOPU)
-- moved into said place
-- started school
-- work A LOT
It seems like that is not very much, but the process of starting school and moving into my new place has been more than enough to keep me busy.
So, for those of you who are interested in IHOPU or what I'm actually studying, here's a list of the classes I am taking and a description (brief because I have to run to Worship Team soon):
Forerunner Music Academy -- 1st year, 2nd semester student
Primary Intstrument: Voice
Classes:
-- Prophetic Singing 2 (2x/week):
Voice class that combines technical training for voice with meditation and memorization of the Word, as well as prophetic singing (singing in the Spirit, and spontaneous, and outside writting). Required practice time outside of class: 5 hours per week (not including homework)
-- KeysETT 1 (Ear Training, Music Theory, Technical Training, 3x/week):
basic keyboard/piano class, but includes worship time, etc. Required practice time: 3 hours per week (not including book homework, etc)
-- Harp & Bowl Lab (Worship Team):
This counts as my Prayer Room hours. I am currently on a Worship Team, and we lead Intercession or Worship With the Word (WWW) sets just like the ones you see in the Prayer Room. Included is training on the Harp & Bowl Model (a style of worship), outlines for Apostolic Prayers and Psalm 8, recording choruses (on paper) sung by worship team, BPM for said choruses, Chord Progressons, Cross References for specific scriptures, etc. I am currently singing on the worship team.
--Beholding His Majesty (with Pablo Perez, the Director of FMA)
Teaching on the attributes of God and knowing who God is, contemplative prayer, reading Attributes of God by AW Tozer. Papers and reports included.
-- Life of David (Matt Candler)
Teaching on the Life of David, and becoming a person after God's own heart. Required Text: After God's Own Heart by Mike Bickle, the Bible.
-- FMA Practicum
FMA gets together once a week to worship and learn together. Last week, one of our instructors taught on the word Ahava and the meaning. We actually learned a lot of Hebrew (I already knew it), and it was very spot-on.
-- IHOPU Chapel/D-Group
Twice a month IHOPU meets altogether as a school and worships and learns together. Twice a month we meet in separate small groups, or Discipleship Groups (D-Group) to have accountability and peers that we can run with in a more intimate setting.
-- EGS: Encounter God Service -- Jesus, Our Magnificent Obsession (with Mike Bickle)
This is a required class for first and second year students, taught by Mike Bickle.
-- FCF: Forerunner Christian Fellowship
This is basically church for IHOPU students.
--Prayer Room hours:
While my Harp & Bowl Lab and services count as prayer room hours, I am required to choose 2 4-hour blocks of time outside of this to be in the Prayer Room.
I will also be taking Ballet, Jazz, and Hip Hop at Dramatic Truth Dance Academy near IHOP starting next week.
**This schedule doesn't include my work hours and my time at Or HaOlam Messianic Congregation.
So, as you can see I am very busy. But the Lord is providing all the financial support I need, so I am super super blessed. It's crazy how it all happened. Please continue to pray for me mostly that I would be intentional about making time to study, sleep, and eat. Thanks! I miss home a lot, but I am so happy at school. This is exactly the kind of school I need and want and have been looking for. I feel like I can actually learn something here and I will actually use it in the future.
Ok, more on all of this later. Bless you all! Love you!
<3
So, the past month or so has been so hectic and busy! I guess that's good, because I didn't come here to lay around and do nothing all day.
In the past month (since I posted my last blog), I have done the following:
-- found a place to live (about 4 minutes from the Prayer Room and 7-10 minutes from IHOPU)
-- moved into said place
-- started school
-- work A LOT
It seems like that is not very much, but the process of starting school and moving into my new place has been more than enough to keep me busy.
So, for those of you who are interested in IHOPU or what I'm actually studying, here's a list of the classes I am taking and a description (brief because I have to run to Worship Team soon):
Forerunner Music Academy -- 1st year, 2nd semester student
Primary Intstrument: Voice
Classes:
-- Prophetic Singing 2 (2x/week):
Voice class that combines technical training for voice with meditation and memorization of the Word, as well as prophetic singing (singing in the Spirit, and spontaneous, and outside writting). Required practice time outside of class: 5 hours per week (not including homework)
-- KeysETT 1 (Ear Training, Music Theory, Technical Training, 3x/week):
basic keyboard/piano class, but includes worship time, etc. Required practice time: 3 hours per week (not including book homework, etc)
-- Harp & Bowl Lab (Worship Team):
This counts as my Prayer Room hours. I am currently on a Worship Team, and we lead Intercession or Worship With the Word (WWW) sets just like the ones you see in the Prayer Room. Included is training on the Harp & Bowl Model (a style of worship), outlines for Apostolic Prayers and Psalm 8, recording choruses (on paper) sung by worship team, BPM for said choruses, Chord Progressons, Cross References for specific scriptures, etc. I am currently singing on the worship team.
--Beholding His Majesty (with Pablo Perez, the Director of FMA)
Teaching on the attributes of God and knowing who God is, contemplative prayer, reading Attributes of God by AW Tozer. Papers and reports included.
-- Life of David (Matt Candler)
Teaching on the Life of David, and becoming a person after God's own heart. Required Text: After God's Own Heart by Mike Bickle, the Bible.
-- FMA Practicum
FMA gets together once a week to worship and learn together. Last week, one of our instructors taught on the word Ahava and the meaning. We actually learned a lot of Hebrew (I already knew it), and it was very spot-on.
-- IHOPU Chapel/D-Group
Twice a month IHOPU meets altogether as a school and worships and learns together. Twice a month we meet in separate small groups, or Discipleship Groups (D-Group) to have accountability and peers that we can run with in a more intimate setting.
-- EGS: Encounter God Service -- Jesus, Our Magnificent Obsession (with Mike Bickle)
This is a required class for first and second year students, taught by Mike Bickle.
-- FCF: Forerunner Christian Fellowship
This is basically church for IHOPU students.
--Prayer Room hours:
While my Harp & Bowl Lab and services count as prayer room hours, I am required to choose 2 4-hour blocks of time outside of this to be in the Prayer Room.
I will also be taking Ballet, Jazz, and Hip Hop at Dramatic Truth Dance Academy near IHOP starting next week.
**This schedule doesn't include my work hours and my time at Or HaOlam Messianic Congregation.
So, as you can see I am very busy. But the Lord is providing all the financial support I need, so I am super super blessed. It's crazy how it all happened. Please continue to pray for me mostly that I would be intentional about making time to study, sleep, and eat. Thanks! I miss home a lot, but I am so happy at school. This is exactly the kind of school I need and want and have been looking for. I feel like I can actually learn something here and I will actually use it in the future.
Ok, more on all of this later. Bless you all! Love you!
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