So like since I got here the Lord has totally been speaking to me like basically everyday. So here it is in a nutshell....
1. Friday, July 9, 2010
The Lord called me to be completely vulnerable with my Core Group and share my ENTIRE testimony during our testimony-sharing time. Totally liberating. My Core Group is amazing and they loved me through the whole thing and gave me mad props for sharing.
2. Saturday, July 10, 2010
During our Student Awakening service (partly in reaction to the service the night before), I had a strong desire to really just be open to the Holy Spirit in whatever way He wanted to show Himself in me (basically people were manifesting a lot and I didn't understand it and I was struggling the night before, but a girl talked to me and gave me some peace about it which was awesome...which was a divine appt.). So essentially I got the gift of tongues that night without anyone praying with me. I was asking for it and the guy was talking about an awakening of the spiritual gifts on stage and the Lord said this, "You have but to open your mouth and you will receive." So I did, and it was strange at first but I felt like my tongue was on fire! It was awesome!
This day I was totally going through Messianic withdrawal but I wore my Sacrifice shirt that day.
Side note: people are totally accepting and curious about Messianic Judaism and they are asking questions and totally open and loving about my Jewish heritage. I think there is one other girl in the internship who is Messianic, but I haven't met her yet. :)
3. Sunday, July 11, 2010
During the Sunday Evening Service Message, the Lord really revealed to me that He loves me and how much He loves me. I AM LOVED!
4. Monday, July 12, 2010 -- Consecration Day
So this day we were encouraged to fast something so I felt the Lord wanted me to fast make-up and not straighten my hair or anything. Basically what Consecration Day is...we were in the Prayer Room from 1pm-12am with an optional 30 minute dinner break. Most awesome time ever! I LOVE the prayer room. You totally would too! They have two different kinds of two-hour worship sets: Worship w/ the Word and Intercession. We got a packet that took us through the day with journal writing, reading, participating in the Intercession, silence, answering questions regarding the Word. Writing our testimony was last, and we were supposed to write it in a way that would make us grateful and thankful to the Lord for what He has done in our life. So I wrote it and as I was finishing up, the Chorus Leader (not to be confused with the Worship Leader) began singing this prophetic song...
"Fill us with Your love
Overwhelm us with Your love
Take us from the ashes
Seat us with princes
It's what You do
It's just what You do"
I wrote it in my testimony, and then I got up and began to worship the Lord and suddenly the whole room was jumping and cheering and clapping (it was a fast song), and dancing and worshiping the Lord and so was I!! It was so awesome and goes perfectly with my testimony. Then, the Chorus Leader got this prophetic word and began talking about how someone in this room was just searching for forgiveness and just being repentant and begging the Lord. She said it's right that we do that but the Lord has so much more in store for us than just being forgiven. He wants to lift us up and seat us with Him. "Get a bigger vision", is one of the things they started singing. Suddenly I just broke down and started crying....cause that was me! I've just been begging the Lord to forgive me for everything, not even realizing He already has and He has more for me than just being forgiven.
Short back story...AT my sending party D'Vorah and another woman at our congregation gave me one scripture but at different times (they didn't know they had given it to me). It was from Ester or something (idr), but it was about how the Lord was going to clothe me in His fine linens and jewels and put a crown on my head. And how I would be called 'beautiful' among the other women, etc. As I'm sitting in my chair, crying into my hands, the Lord reminds me of that scripture and gives me a vision of what it looked like. At that point, I just lost it, lol. The theme, "I'M WORTH IT", kept coming into my head and I just couldn't stop crying! It was awesome! :D:D:D
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
We had our first class and Ron Downing (the director) taught us about Being a Person of Extravagant Devotion. He said our only calling is to love Yeshua and to cultivate a loving devotion to Him. He said our function is what ministry we have, etc. But he talked about Mary of Bethany and said when she broke the vile of perfume on Yeshua's head, she was wasting her entire life (security, safety, etc) on Yeshua, but that it was the only right action that was done.
Matthew 7:21-23 says:
21 "Not everyone who says to Me, "Lord, Lord," will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.
22 "Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your Name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your Name?'
23 "And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from me, you who practice lawlessness."
God judges us based on how well we know Him, and not how much we've done for the kingdom. If we are not rooted in the Word and in the Lord, we will burn out within 5 years. He actually encouraged us to take ten years and just cultivate a devotion to Yeshua instead of building a ministry (saying that if it happens, it happens, but don't TRY to build it). I'm really praying about what the Lord wants me to do so I don't "burn out" again. I want to be on fire when I'm 50, 60, 70+, and not like the typical believer who becomes bitter and offended and complacent in their walk with Yeshua. I'm open to anything He wants, but I really want to seek His will for me. :)
I love everyone and I miss you! :D
In His Love,
Dolly
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