Alright....Here We Go!

So, apparently, I never actually deleted this blog....

Now I have THREE blogs!!! This is difficult. I'm not sure what to do, lol. But, here you go! I will be using THIS blog FOR SURE now. Sorry for all the confusion!

July 9-13, 2010

Sorry I haven't written in a while...so busy here.

So like since I got here the Lord has totally been speaking to me like basically everyday. So here it is in a nutshell....

1. Friday, July 9, 2010

The Lord called me to be completely vulnerable with my Core Group and share my ENTIRE testimony during our testimony-sharing time. Totally liberating. My Core Group is amazing and they loved me through the whole thing and gave me mad props for sharing.

2. Saturday, July 10, 2010

During our Student Awakening service (partly in reaction to the service the night before), I had a strong desire to really just be open to the Holy Spirit in whatever way He wanted to show Himself in me (basically people were manifesting a lot and I didn't understand it and I was struggling the night before, but a girl talked to me and gave me some peace about it which was awesome...which was a divine appt.). So essentially I got the gift of tongues that night without anyone praying with me. I was asking for it and the guy was talking about an awakening of the spiritual gifts on stage and the Lord said this, "You have but to open your mouth and you will receive." So I did, and it was strange at first but I felt like my tongue was on fire! It was awesome!

This day I was totally going through Messianic withdrawal but I wore my Sacrifice shirt that day.

Side note: people are totally accepting and curious about Messianic Judaism and they are asking questions and totally open and loving about my Jewish heritage. I think there is one other girl in the internship who is Messianic, but I haven't met her yet. :)

3. Sunday, July 11, 2010

During the Sunday Evening Service Message, the Lord really revealed to me that He loves me and how much He loves me. I AM LOVED!

4. Monday, July 12, 2010 -- Consecration Day

So this day we were encouraged to fast something so I felt the Lord wanted me to fast make-up and not straighten my hair or anything. Basically what Consecration Day is...we were in the Prayer Room from 1pm-12am with an optional 30 minute dinner break. Most awesome time ever! I LOVE the prayer room. You totally would too! They have two different kinds of two-hour worship sets: Worship w/ the Word and Intercession. We got a packet that took us through the day with journal writing, reading, participating in the Intercession, silence, answering questions regarding the Word. Writing our testimony was last, and we were supposed to write it in a way that would make us grateful and thankful to the Lord for what He has done in our life. So I wrote it and as I was finishing up, the Chorus Leader (not to be confused with the Worship Leader) began singing this prophetic song...

"Fill us with Your love

Overwhelm us with Your love

Take us from the ashes

Seat us with princes

It's what You do

It's just what You do"

I wrote it in my testimony, and then I got up and began to worship the Lord and suddenly the whole room was jumping and cheering and clapping (it was a fast song), and dancing and worshiping the Lord and so was I!! It was so awesome and goes perfectly with my testimony. Then, the Chorus Leader got this prophetic word and began talking about how someone in this room was just searching for forgiveness and just being repentant and begging the Lord. She said it's right that we do that but the Lord has so much more in store for us than just being forgiven. He wants to lift us up and seat us with Him. "Get a bigger vision", is one of the things they started singing. Suddenly I just broke down and started crying....cause that was me! I've just been begging the Lord to forgive me for everything, not even realizing He already has and He has more for me than just being forgiven.

Short back story...AT my sending party D'Vorah and another woman at our congregation gave me one scripture but at different times (they didn't know they had given it to me). It was from Ester or something (idr), but it was about how the Lord was going to clothe me in His fine linens and jewels and put a crown on my head. And how I would be called 'beautiful' among the other women, etc. As I'm sitting in my chair, crying into my hands, the Lord reminds me of that scripture and gives me a vision of what it looked like. At that point, I just lost it, lol. The theme, "I'M WORTH IT", kept coming into my head and I just couldn't stop crying! It was awesome! :D:D:D

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

We had our first class and Ron Downing (the director) taught us about Being a Person of Extravagant Devotion. He said our only calling is to love Yeshua and to cultivate a loving devotion to Him. He said our function is what ministry we have, etc. But he talked about Mary of Bethany and said when she broke the vile of perfume on Yeshua's head, she was wasting her entire life (security, safety, etc) on Yeshua, but that it was the only right action that was done.

Matthew 7:21-23 says:

21 "Not everyone who says to Me, "Lord, Lord," will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.

22 "Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your Name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your Name?'

23 "And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from me, you who practice lawlessness."

God judges us based on how well we know Him, and not how much we've done for the kingdom. If we are not rooted in the Word and in the Lord, we will burn out within 5 years. He actually encouraged us to take ten years and just cultivate a devotion to Yeshua instead of building a ministry (saying that if it happens, it happens, but don't TRY to build it). I'm really praying about what the Lord wants me to do so I don't "burn out" again. I want to be on fire when I'm 50, 60, 70+, and not like the typical believer who becomes bitter and offended and complacent in their walk with Yeshua. I'm open to anything He wants, but I really want to seek His will for me. :)

I love everyone and I miss you! :D

In His Love,

Dolly

Orientation Time

Alright people! Welcome to blog numero uno for me, Dolly Mullen, at the One Thing Internship at the International House of Prayer (aka IHOP-KC) in Kansas City, MO. Weee!

So I've never blogged before...ever...so I hope I do this right, and if you have any pointers for me on blogging let me know. lol ("laugh out loud" for those who are NOT internet friendly).

So for those who were praying for my voice and such...it's been back since Tuesday which I am truly grateful for! Thanks for all of your prayers and encouragement and counsel on this! :) The train ride was pretty sweet but I didn't get ANY sleep and I couldn't take a shower. :( Paul Mahoney picked me up from the train station which was totally awesome cause it saved me a ton of money taking a taxi. Partial thanks to Marianne for being a momma and asking him at Messiah (to my utter embarrassment, lol). ;) Anyway, I got my bank account set up at Valley View bank and then Josh Mahoney helped me out by waiting for me and carrying my bags in my apartment. Ironically I was NOT the one who brought the most stuff....wooooo! :D

My roommates are Lauren Seegar from Phoenix, Arizona, and Traci Ellis from Jefferson, Oregon. They are awesome! We are all 21 (yesss) and from the West Coast. They both really love the Lord and are super accommodating and friendly. Lauren plays guitar and has a beautiful voice and Traci is such an awesome woman of God (she reads her Bible like alll the time which is a total witness to me and it's totally awesome). They are totally cool about sharing and the lines of communication have been opened and we're all pretty laid back about living stuff which is nice.

My Core Group includes my roommates and the 5 girls living upstairs: Angela Bohannon (Kentucky), Joy Fears(Houston, TX), Christina (blanking on her last name cause we just met yesterday - she came late - but she's from Irvine, CA!!!!! and she went to Stanford), Lisa Luoh (San Jose, CA!!!), Brianna Puls (Colorado). Our Core Leader is actually the leader of all the Core Leaders and her name is Bethany Blosser and she is from Ohio but has been at IHOP for about 5 years. Our house leader (living with my roommates and I) is Rachelle but she isn't coming until next Thursday.

I love my Core Group and roommates! We're all the same age and we accept each other and love the Lord. Yesterday afternoon I was able to share my ENTIRE testimony with them....which was completely liberating since I've only shared the whole thing with Boris and Bob (my best friend and my Pastor), although Marianne and D'Vorah know most of it. I feel like the Lord is calling me to be vulnerable and transparent with my Core Group...which is REALLY hard for me, for the record. I always put up a "got it altogether" attitude (which, in part, is some of the reason why people find me intimidating), the reality of the situation is that I'm very broken inside and I have a tremendous amount of pain that I've never dealt with or shared. My whole group was so proud of me for sharing about myself and some of them even teared up a little while I was sharing. I really feel safe with my Core Group and THAT is such a gift from God and answered prayer.

Just a big thank you to everyone who donated money and worked with me to get here!! I talked to some people and they had to work to come here. While I worked and spent probably about $500 on this....YOU GUYS did the rest. I cannot even explain how incredibly grateful I am that I have a beautiful FAMILY (believing or not) that is willing to invest in little ole me! I love you guys and I promise your gifts and hard work will not be taken lightly....you won't be disappointed! :D THANK YOU!

Quick shout out to Chaiyalim Adonai....my soldiers I love you guys and I am bragging about how great you guys are all the time! Keep seeking the Lord and don't stop! He is calling your name and you have but to ask Him to come into your life (with the recognition of where you fall short...which we all do) and you will be His forever! I am praying for a breakthrough for you guys! woo! I love you guys SOOOOOO much and I miss you like crazy! *tears*

Prayer Requests:

- I am going through Messianic withdrawal right now cause I don't get my Shabbat n stuff, so please pray that God will give me some peace about this.

- Today was the first day I literally started shaking after I had caffeine, which is totally abnormal for me. Please pray that the Lord would show me why He is allowing this in my life and what to do to resolve this.

- The Holy Spirit is moving in ways that I am unfamiliar with. Please pray for discernment and wisdom. Also, please pray that I would be open to what the Ruach HaKodesh wants to do in my life...healing physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. I would like to come back free from my acne problem that I've been dealing with for 10 years.

- Please pray for strength and energy and a flexible spirit to go with the constantly changing schedule.

I love you and I'm praying for you.....:D:D:D

Blessings,

Dolly

PS - If there's something that you want send me that I would need to sign for, you have to send it to the post office.