Becoming Dolly

I refuse to be you.  I promise to me and all that God has created me to be.  I refuse your offense and your judgment.  I refuse your style, your appearance, and your scent.  I accept my own as divinely created and inspired.

I will be me.

Because, the me that's in here is enough for the One who created the "here".  Who I am is enough for Him and who I choose to be is inspired by Him.  So put down your swords, and put down your knives.  Stabbing me in the back won't change what's inside.  A new me has arisen. with armor and wisdom.

I will be me.

I am created in His image, flaws and all.  But are you the one who defines beauty?  No, not at all.  I've got scars on my heart and blemishes on my face.  But He sees me pure and without a trace. You think putting me down makes you much more?  I'll leave that one to He who'll settle the score.

I will be me.

I will think my thoughts and express the way I was born to express.  I can't be you, because you're already taken.  I can't live your life.  I can't have your dreams.  I refuse to be you and forget my own self-esteem.  I'm a person all my own.  I belong to God, and then myself.  You have no control so please put down your stones.  When I look in the mirror, it's His image I want to see, not yours.  I let you be you, so please let me be me.  I don't belong to you.  I'm not your property.

I will be me.

I'm gonna take flight, and forget all this nonsense.  I am going to move forward, saying yes to the process. I'm gonna learn that it's ok to be me.  He loves me still, don't you see?  My acceptance is based not on my brother, but on the God who says, "Man, I love her".  I am still weak, and I know I'll fail. But failure doesn't make me me...this ain't no fairy tale.

So you be you and I'll be me, and maybe we can keep each other's company.  But don't try to change me and judge me anymore.  We both have no clue what God has in store.  I was created for His purpose, not yours.  I just wanna be faithful and love Him, at the core.

I have a voice.  I have a future.  I have a hope. I am beautiful and lovely.  I have worth.  I have value.  I have talent.  I have wisdom and discernment.  I have passion.  I have meekness and humility.  I have love.  I have life.  I have the mind of Christ.  I am intelligent.  I am smart. I am compassionate. I am fun and outgoing.  I am quiet and pensive.  I love people.  I love Jesus.  I am introspective. I have dreams.  I have vision.  I am noble. I am pure.  I am clean.  I am the righteousness of God in Messiah Jesus. This is truth.  Not the curses you speak over me. "You owe me nothing, I deserve hell. You owe me nothing, but You've given me mercy."  

My path is different than yours.  My past is different than yours.  My future will be different than yours.

I. WILL. BE. ME.